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Tribute to Michael Jackson

Tuesday, June 30, 2009 / 4:48 PM

There are tsunami of tributes from MJ fans from all over the world since Friday,

I got my news from Fly Fm about his death last Friday,

And that was the first news I got that morning,

I'm not a fan of MJ,

But I grew up with his songs,

Since my parents used to listen to it in the car and at home..

So basically, I had gotten use to MJ during my childhood days..

My lil brother watched his thriller movie..

I listened to his songs most of the time..

In my dad's car...

To be honest,

I didn't get why the hype about Michael Jackson that time
(when I was younger and through my teenage days),
I wasn't into music and I listen to whatever songs my parents listen to during my childhood days,
So yes, I didn't really understand the unique-ness in MJ that time..
His moonwalk, killer voice and his trademarks..
Not till, I actually sit and watch him performing live with my mom last Saturday night,
And that is when I get why he is so well liked by everyone, everywhere and anywhere..
He's a pure genius in music thats all I can say..

I followed news bout him since there'll always be news about him circulating online or the paper,
But most of the news that I came across him ain't very pleasant,
His scandals, his critics and stuff..
Which leave me questioning,
Is he a bad guy after all?

I mean if he's a bad guy,
He wouldn't survive in the music industry till today,
And idols wouldn't make him as their role model..
His fans would definitely have second thoughts about him..
Since his death on Friday,
I've been following reports about his death on the papers,
Online and I did have feedbacks from my friends..
And thing is,

I still couldn't believe that he is no longer here...

It took me quite sometime to actually grasp the news about his death,
Cause though I am not a fan of him,
To me, he is someone who will live forever among us..
Perhaps its because of his music which speaks for him all the time,
Makes his absence in the world just not right..
Reading through stuff about him,
I guess, all those accusation is from the root of jealousy among certain people,

People called him a pedophile, a strange guy or a freak due to his physical apperance,
And to tell you the truth, I never really actually notice his looks,

(according to some of them he looks mutated because of his nose or something)
But to me, everything seemed normal to me except for his super fair skin,
Fine, maybe I am ignorant when comes to looks,
However, I do question if he's a phedophile..
Cause I know he writes songs to help the needy children,
And I do know that he loves children,
He even did a lot of voluntary charity work for those children out there,
It will be very very hypocritical for someone who write songs about children,
Do things for children but behind all those deeds, he himself abuses children..

Then again, he was abused by his father when he was younger,
Surely he wouldn't want other children to receive the same fate as he is..
People call his strange maybe its because of him keeping a lot of things to himself all the time,
Since he's a total different person on stage than in person,
But watching his performance, I can sense that,
The stage is where he can feel the sense of belonging and he can feel that he is being loved,
I do know that he's a scarred person,
Who didn't get to feel how is childhood life like,

And his teenage life?
He faces rejection.

Like I say, he speaks through his songs,
People failed to know him through his songs,
And rejected him in public not knowing who he really is..
Indeed, he kept a lot to himself,
But he did reveal quite a lot bout himself through the songs that he wrote,

He mentions bout his loss of childhood and rejection below :

"Have you seen my Childhood?

I'm searching for the world that I come from
Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...
People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?"

Yes, he wants people to try hard to love him, instead of judging him first before loving him,
People find him strange,
And why?
Because he likes 'elementary things' and what are the elementary things he mean here?
Perhaps its the kids..
He likes kids..
Treat them well because he feels that it is his fate to ''compensate, for the Childhood',
That he never known...

-Childhood-

His loneliness is protrayed from another one of his songs,

"Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away"

You can feel the need for him to be accepted in so many ways,
If you have been reading what others say bout him,
Somehow you could sense that he had been disappointed by so many people in his life,

Read today's STAR(T19), under Music column,

His friend wrote about the times he spent with him..

-You Are Not Alone-

Now you may ask,
That he's gone,
It is when you start appreciating him..
I bet some of you who are reading this,
Feeling guilty about not appreciating him before..
Thing is,

Its not that I didn't appreciate him before this,

I grew up with his music,
His songs were part of the memories I had of my childhood days,
I didn't bother about what others say bout him,
Neither did I ever stop questioning about him..
And I respect him,
For not allowing those accusation to influence him from making another appearance on stage..

Its a pity that he didn't get to fulfil his last wish,

To perform in London somewhere next month..

I guess his final comeback on stage,

Is for him to proove himself to everyone again,

And to regain conformation from his fans that they truly care bout him,

At least that what I think so..

We all know that MJ always do something to his appearance,

Not only appearance, but his performance and his songs..

Since he is "starting with the man in the mirror,"

"Asking him to change his ways

And no message could have been any clearer

If you wanna make the world a better place

Take a look at yourself, and then make a change"

-Man In The Mirror-

He might not be here,

But his music will still live among us for..

He speaks through his music and he did say in one of his song that,

"You are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart"

Thank you Michael Jackson,

For the awesome music, your dance steps and your inspiration to those respectable people from all over the world,

You are gone, but your music will live forever.

David's ALTNOY performance in Newark

Saturday, June 27, 2009 / 6:51 AM

That is David's performance in Newark,
He is on his summer tour now..
And I simply love him live!
Saw his killer smile at 0.07-0.09..
And I went like..awwwww..Xp

This song is still my favourite among all his songs,
Though I like all his songs..
But this song, I'll listen to it every single day,
Without getting sick of it..XD

I'm awake!

/ 6:33 AM

I'm awake!!!

And its only 6.33am!o.O

This could possibly be my earliest morning ever since the past 3 weeks!

I have the whole day to kill,

All by myself!

(how sad is that!?)

Since my siblings will be away to school..

I guess I'll spend my day reading another book,

Trying to finish another book..

That is IF, I don't have plans later in the noon..

I still can't believe that stupid dream,

Is the dream that woke me up=____=

I tossed and turn on my bed after I was jolted up by that dumb dream,

(its not a nightmare, fyi)

And decided that I couldn't go back to bed,

So here I am..

So I need David to keep me pumping!!

I shall watch his concert in Newark,

And spazz for a while,

Before I grab a book and bury myself in another wonderland..Xp

Have a nice day ahead you people!

PS: I am thinking of cutting my hair short. What do you think about it?

HAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!

Friday, June 26, 2009 / 2:20 AM

Gosh!!!
Felvin is soooo funny!!!
And after laughing at what he says,
I read Chloe's blog..
And I laughed so hard!!!!!
That my sis gave me the stare..Xp

Read what she says,
"her blog

That clown!!!

"Thank God you worked!!!"

Hahahahahhahahahha!!!

PS: Too many tweets!! CAN'T LOG INTO MY TWITTER!!!
PPS: Felvin, you owe me something!!*evil grin*
PPPS: Medical students are HORNY!!! Especially if they are a guy!XP
Not being a stereotype here, but I am speaking from what I know..XD

Unrequited

Wednesday, June 24, 2009 / 11:55 PM

What is love when love means nothing?
What is everything when everything means nothing?
Is it true that in the arithmetic of love 1 + 1 is everything?
If its so?
Why are you still demanding?
Why am I still demanding?
Choosing between “love” and “bread”,
What is your choice?
What will be mine?
Choosing between the millions and millions of flowers..
Will you land on me, my precious butterfly?
LOVE is all BUT so is HATE!
To love or to hate is just 3 alphabets' difference!
But those 3 alphabets make a world of differences,
To me at least.
You are my hope is this hopeless world.
You are my princess in my fairy tale.
You are my inspiration when I am down.
You are basically everything to me.

Without you..
There will be still a “me”, of course.
BUT a “me” with a shattered soul,
A broken heart,
And a “me” without hope for living...
For you, there will always hope, because you are an undeniable “a popular choice”.
You can always look forward for people who you love.
But if you have the time,
Please turn back, and take a look at me.
I will always be here.
I cannot promise you we will be together forever,
As I cannot foresee the future.
BUT what I can promise you is that I will love you more and more forever,
Like the tangent of angle 90,
Always tends towards infinite!

You once asked me “How much do you love me?”
I didn’t give you an answer,
Because my love for you is more than words can ever describe,
Deeper than the depth of “The Challenger Deep”.
By defining “how much I love you” in words or in numbers will be an insult to you.
Let me show you how much I love you!
Join me in my journey!
Make this journey our journey,
A journey just for the 2 of us,
A journey that is meant for only for you and me,
A journey for eternity,
A never-ending journey of “love”.
If you could just give me your hand,
I promise you will not regret it!

I LOVE YOU!

This piece of *cough* heart felt poem,
Isn't from me,
But its from Felvin..
And I think it is a good one..
I get it when some of you might find it sloppy,
Or perhaps, its emotional,
But it is conveys a very straight forward message,
That you can't possibly miss it,
Obviously this poem isn't dedicated for me,
But I shall not say anything due to my respect for his privacy=)

PS : I miss you so much, but I think I've lost you..

I miss college!

/ 3:00 AM

Shitness!!

This is one of those sleepless nights again,
Where I don't sleep, cause I can't frigging sleep!!!

I miss being busy,

Being caught up with homework, assignments, and revisions..

Caught up with the time that seemed to fly whenever you are up to something,

With my lunch group,

Crapping about random stuff,

The randomest ever crap during our lunch break,

Dreading certain classes cause I am feeling damn sleepy,

And having a sucky lecturer who is a total bitch..

I am kidding about missing the feeling of dreading certain lesson,

And miss having sucky lecturer who is a total bitch..XD

I have approximately 2 weeks left or so before I go back to college,

For my second semester..

I can't wait to go to college!

Meet up with my mates!

To know who will be teaching me,

To know who are my classmates,

To go high for the sake of being high..

To listen to Mei Shan's lame jokes,

Lydia super loud voice,

Watching at Didi spazzing,

Jin bullying people around him,

Chloe blurring away..

And the list goes on and on..

I don't mind having breaks,

But this summer break is way too long,

I feel too comfortable,

To the extend that I think I should have something to study for,

But no, I have NOTHING to study for,

No assignments to think about,

No writings to do..

Except for updating this blog..

Not having anything to test myself,

To keep myself occupied,

Though I did quite a lot of reading most of the time during this break,

But still I am feeling rather restless about,

Not having stuff to fret over=__=

Besides my driving

I'm wide awake at night,

Most nights actually,

Cause I'm not feeling exhausted!!!

I might be complaining about having nothing to study for, assignments to do bla bla..

Trust me,

I'll shut this crap when I start going to college..Xp

Its nice meeting the people that I should meet this break,

Spending time with my mates..

But I feel a pang of loss..

As if I am jobless or something=___=

Soon enough..

I'll be back with my so called, "routine"

*scoff*

"Routine" indeed!

There's no routine when there's college..

I just can't find the right word alright?!"

There are stuff that I wanna rant here to be honest,

But I ended up ranting about how I miss college..XP

I guess I shall stop for now..

Gonna dig out something to read..

Till then...

PS: 3am! The unholy hour. And Felvin just told me a true ghost story on MSN. I need my cup of milo but now I am afraid to go downstairs and make one for myself>.<

David Archuleta Concert in Malaysia

Monday, June 22, 2009 / 3:43 PM

So, if you wanna meet him performing live again,

(Obviously, I do!)
You could put your name in the petition :David Archuleta Concert in Malaysia

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Father's Day

Sunday, June 21, 2009 / 10:22 PM

Its Father's Day today!!
My dad is one super man who cooks, do the laundry, being the driver..
Not forgetting being our driver^^

He's hot tempered, loves being at home and mostly,
He's a good man..
Who doesn't drink or smoke^^

Happy Father's Day pa!!=)
He wants nothing from us..
But to be his good lil children=.=

We went Nandos today for dinner,
And I got my copy of Seventeen Magazine!!!=)
With David Archuleta on its cover*grin*
Man, he's gorgeous!

I always have that grin plastered on my face,
Whenever I watch his videos,
Or go through pictures of him^^

When I was in Jusco just now,
There's this local singer who is there,
But not many people bother to line up to get her autograph,
Anyway..
Seeing her there,
I wish its David there instead..
I am waiting for him to come back here,
And have his full concert=p
For now..
I am waiting for his christmas album release=p

PS : One of David's favourite colour is GREEN^^

Anything but you

/ 4:00 AM

Everytime I stumbled across anything to do with you,

Even if its just a picture of you,

Or your name..

Man!

I feel like I've just been kicked in my stomach,

Or rather, there's still butterflies in my stomach..

Whenever I catch a glimpse of something,

That reminds me of you..

It is easier to put up with it now..

Much easier to hold back too..

But somehow,

I still miss you,

And at times,

It could be unbearable..

Yes I know,

I am an idiot.

I'll do anything,

Just not to be reminded myself of you..

Happy Birthday Mom

Saturday, June 20, 2009 / 11:40 PM

Its mummy's birthday today!
I forgotten how old is she actually,
My sis hadda remind me her age..
Anyway, she's celebrating her 42nd birthday this year!=D
We had a double celebration along with Father's Day.

She might be pretty controlling at times,
Especially when I hit my teen age,
As much as I hate her controlling me at those days,
But, if its not for her, I wouldn't be able to think,
I might not agree with her thoughts,
But I pretty much keep them to myself..
However, she is always the one whom I'll turn to,
If I need an adult views about certain things..

I must say,
She's a sport!=)
I thank The One above for giving me such a mother,
Who is open to new cultures and experience,
Who doesn't think like those typical chinese mother,
That love their son better than their daughters,
(I feel sorry for those girls who grew up with a mother with typical chinese thinking)
But my mom treats us equally,
Boy or girl..
She thinks we all have the rights to choose what we want in live,
I love it when I could ask her to convince my dad to allow me to go for trips or camps,
For my dad hates it when I am away from home..

She might be over protective towards me,
But I know she does it out of her love for me,
Yes, I have to say that I might not be the easiest daughter to speak to as I grew up,
Or get along with..
However, like most mothers..
She tries to understand my needs and try to tolerate my temper at home...
She knows very well that I am a messy person,
Who hates to clean her room..
And she always helped me with the cleaning,
But everything has a limit,
We are not pampered,
Since we were taught from young,
To work for what we want..
We were taught not to be dependable on other people,
And girls shouldn't be dependable on guys..

Hence,
Because of her,
I'm able to love myself for who I am..
She taught me a lot when comes to areas like that,
Dignity, self-value, determination etc..

Happy Birthday Mom!!!

Note : Át times, I wish you could stop treating me like a kid. Then again, all mothers actually parents can never look at their child as an adult. For as we grew up, we will still be a kid in their eyes^^

Usually when you date a guy for years,
You would ask them when will they get married...
And I have a few cousins who has been having a stable relationship with their other half,
Since they are all grown ups,
And its about the time for some of them to get married,
So instead of asking my mom when will they get married,
My brother asked, "Ma, when will she break up with her boyfriend?"
It was hilarious!!
I can't help laughing!!XD

My bro is super straight forward with his words,
He doesn't filter what he wants to tell you,
He speaks his mind,
Though at times his words might hurt your feelings,
Somehow, I don't mind him being like that,
In fact, I can get along very well with him since he doesn't mind my unfiltered words..*grin*

Your presence

Friday, June 19, 2009 / 11:45 PM

There are a lot of times,

When I thought that I need you ,

For your presence is what matters to me,

But your presence,

Might stop me from thinking straight,

And forgetting what is my purpose here,

Since I might think that you are the reason,

That I can't wait for tomorrow to come..

I never exactly leave,

As you still do exist in my memories,

Though time did erased some of those away..

You are who I am today,

You are the reason for my passion,

And for that,

I can never forget you...

To Women

Wednesday, June 17, 2009 / 5:00 PM

Melody posted a note in Facebook,
And I thought of sharing this with you..^^

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone I shaped you, I modeled you, I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib: strong, yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The ribcage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart.

Support man as the ribcage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken for his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand by him and to be held close to his side.

You are My perfect angel.. you are My beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and My eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart. Your eyes.. don’t change them. Your lips, how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands, so gentle to touch. I have caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I have held your heart close to Mine. Of all that lives and breaths, you are most like Me. Adam walked with Me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see Me or touch Me.

He could only feel Me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with Me, I fashioned in you: My holiness, My strength, My purity, My love, My protection, and support. You are special because you are an extension of Me. Man represent My image, woman My emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man, treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt Me. What you do to her, you do to Me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart; the heart of your Father and the heart of her Father. Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle quietness, show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.

My lil cousin

Tuesday, June 16, 2009 / 9:34 AM

My cousins are back to Australia.
They were back for a week..
And I got to speak to that lil cousin of mine, Jun Yi..
Somehow, I find it really nice to speak to that kid,
For a kid of her age,
(you guys know that kids and I don't go along well)

She knows a lot!!!
Unlike those bratty lil kids these days who are super conscious bout getting a PSD, Ipod or any technology gadgets..
This lil girl here,
Thinks that,
Books can satisfy her needs..

She is always hungry for knowledge,
And she shares her views with the people around her,
She too doesn't get why most girls find Twilight amusing,
And what makes vampire romance story that interesting that most girls seemed get all hype our because of a silly vampire romance story..
Seriously, I find Twilight rather shallow,

I read the first book and I thought that I'll be thirsty for more of it..

But hell I am so wrong,

After reading the first book,

I don't feel like reading the next..>.<

Now you may think she is an Einstein for her age..
That unlike other kids, all she does is to read and playing chasing isn't in her dictionary,
She may be an Einstein about the world for her age..
But she gets along well with anyone around her,
She could speak to people who are way older than she is..
And enjoy herself as a kid playing toys with the kids of her age..
I don't know exactly how old is she..
But I do know that she is in Grade 2..
Which makes her 8 I think,

She left on Sunday,
I told her I might be going to Australia with her,
IF I could get my air ticket,
But no I couldn't get my air ticket..
So I didn't get to follow them to Australia..

I spent my Sunday with my girlfriends,
Forgetting that she'll be leaving on that particular day to Australia,
Its winter now in Australia,
Thus, it's freezing over there..
If I am to go to Australia now,
I might not have any winter clothes to put on..

My mom told me that she was waiting for me,

To be back home,
She wanted to come over to my place to spend the day with me,
But I was out,
And I have guests in my place..
I didn't say a proper goodbye to her since I spoke to her after our family gathering,
I do hope she doesn't put much hope on me going to Australia the other day,
I hate giving false hope for kids like her,
And not fulfilling it..
I know how is it like hoping so much,
And later being disappointed because what I hope for didn't come true..

She was really excited when I told her that I might follow her back to Australia,
Then again, it was so abrupt for me to fly over to her place,
Without any preparation and also an air ticket to enable me to fly..
My parents "promised" me a couple of times,
That they'll send me over to Australia for a vacation..
But guess what?
Till today,
I still haven't get my chance of going to Australia just yet!

In a way I am rather annoyed with my parents for giving me false hopes,
Another, I know I don't have much time for such vacations abroad for now..
Maybe by the end of this year I'll take time off to go for a vacation..

Dear Jun Yi,

If you somehow drop by my blog,
And read this,
I am so sorry for not being able to get an air ticket to Australia,
I'll try to get my parents to get the air ticket in advance somewhere towards the end of the year,
Perhaps I'll be seeing you in Australia in Christmas this year,
*winks*
Take care and you know how to reach me if you ever wanna chat^^

I'm going to Subang today!!=)

Lunch with Lydia and perhaps Jin and Sarlu..

David back in Malaysia?

Monday, June 15, 2009 / 12:54 AM

Since the day I got to witness David performed live in Malaysia,
I am thirsty for more of his live appearance in front of my very own eyes..
He did a spellbounding roadshow in Malaysia on the 11th April,
And it was indeed an historical day for me in my life..

I've talked to some of my friends,
About wanting to meet him again,
And my hopes of him coming to have his concert in my country,
Since he did a concert with David Cook in Manila last month,
Thus I am wishing that we would do one in Malaysia too=)

There's a petition going on,
A petition to get David back to Malaysia for a FULL CONCERT!!!
Yesh!!!

A full concert from David Archuleta!!!=)
Not a roadshow but a FULL CONCERT!!!

To know what is it all about, click David Archuleta in Malaysia

Or you can drop by Archuleta Avenue Malaysia to know what is that all about^^

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Drag Me to Hell review

Sunday, June 14, 2009 / 11:11 PM

Davy came to my place super early this morning,

Woke me up from my beauty sleep=___=

Anyhow, it is always nice having her around my place,

Only thing is, she kept insisting that I should take down my Archuleta posters on my walls>.<

Anyway, Sarlini, Davy and I went for a movie today!=)

It was an abrupt decision..

And we chose to watch a horror movie!!=D

Surprisingly, it was Davy who suggested it(or was it Sarlu?)

I guess its not Sarlu who will suggest us to watch such movie,

Knowing what a coward she is!xD

(she'll definitely KEEEEL me if she ever reads this, but wth!? I am too lovable for her to take my precious life away from me)

Perhaps, she might just give me a curse buttons!>.<

That will be..

Uh...awesome?

Knowing that I'll be going to hell within 3 days when my soul is taken away..XP

Hahahahahaha!!

I can't stop thinking about the buttons, the blood and the old lady in the movie,

We watched, Drag Me to Hell!!

Since Davy's sis recommended that movie to her..

Claiming that it was a pure horror movie!

So yes, obviously I would like a challenge=)

Sarlini claimed that Davy would be the first one who will be screaming,

Davy however, claimed that Sarlini will peed on her jeans instead..

They wouldn't say anything about me screaming in a horror movie cause they know that I am very much "immune" to it by now..

It was an AWESOME horror movie!!Xp

By the end of the movie, I was grabbing Davy's hand..

Sarlini was the first who screamed..

And the dudes behind me, dropped their popcorn on me during the horror scenes,

Most of them screamed and laughed at the right place..

After the movie Sarlini, Davy and I can't stop talking about buttons,

Laughed our arse off when we reminisce our reactions towards the horror scenes,

I am still laughing thinking about how I grabbed Davy and thinking of how Sarlini looked as if her life depends on the chair she's sitting on, she kept sinking down her chair and at the end of the movie, when I looked towards where she was sitted, I wanted to laugh out loud so much but I managed to pull myself together and get out and laugh my ass off at Sarlini's reaction towards the movie!XD

Damn! I better stop spoiling the fun for you guys,

I find the movie funny and interesting,

Its not exactly scary,

But man it did made me jumped from where I am sitted,

The suspense is there at the right place..

And of all horror movies I've watched so far..

I like Drag Me to Hell the best!=)

Not sure it is because of the company I am with which makes the movie entertaining,

Or it is just the story line that I like...

I like the story line though..

And the company who were watching that movie with me^^

So yes, a combination of both..

My sister asked me the stupidest question ever,

And expects me to answer her.

"Jie, what should I say during the interview if they ask me why do I want to be a prefect?"

*rolles eyes*

I told her follow exactly what my brother told his senior that he wants to be a prefect is because of the extra marks he'll get..

But my mom insists me to think of some shyt for her..

I told my sister that all she have to do is to crap what she can during that interview,

As she'll definitely get into the board..

Plus I don't see how can't she be chosen as a prefect when she's such a goody two shoes in school,

I used to go against the authorities in school,

Go against the rules,

And go against my seniors back in school but hell!

I am still a fucking prefect!

Besides, I don't see why is it that important for her to be one,

Just because I had been one, and my brother is one=___=

When I think the board is a load of bullshyt..

I am outta high school now anyway,

They can't sue me for commenting about the board now=p

Even if they want to,

Its pointless^^

So yeah,

My sis is so eager to be a prefect..

When back in my high school days..

I am hoping that I wouldn't be chosen..

Cause if I am chosen,

There's no way I can say no to it=___=

Thanks to my mom..

Which is why I pull people like Davy, Sarlini and Jaskiran to the board=)

To reduce the amount of fools in the board=D

For those who has the passion for the prefectorial board,

I can't apologize for what I say here..

I never have the passion for that fuck gawd board,

But in a way,

It does taught me a lot..

In so many ways=)

Perhaps, it'll do my sister good to be in the board..

Or maybe it won't

All together, just as long as she doesn't turn into one of those teacher's dogs I am fine with it=)

I know exactly who will be fuming after reading this,

Do me a favour by leaving this site will ya?

If you still insists on staying,

Do shut the fuck up!!

Wow!

I am such a bitch ain't I?

Thank you!!^^

I saw Puan Tan in Aeon today..

It was really awkward meeting her,

At the same time,

I can't help being please to see her again!

Only thing is, I don't know how should I greet her>.<

She's just some teachers who taught me and I am blessed to have her as my teacher last time,

But somehow there's no such good connection between that teacher and her students,

Probably me and some of her students...

Like some teachers, you'll be delighted to meet them for a cup of coffee and catch up with them and stuff,

But not for teachers like her, indeed I appreciate what she did for us,

However, I can just smile and greet her when I meet her and allow her to ask me the questions she wanna ask me, which is of course, what am I up to now=___=

Typical eh?

Its back to school for some of you..

Have fun in school!!^^

Sorry

Saturday, June 13, 2009 / 4:29 AM

Justine and I had a chat since I couldn't sleep,
I've been having difficulties in sleeping for the past few nights,
She told me that sorry is the hardest word to say...
It is really hard to apologize,
By mouth, not by writing it down or typing it..
And yesh, I have to agree with her on that..

Its just one simple word,
Sorry.
And yet, it is so hard to gather the courage to use that word,
To apologize,
The energy, will power and mainly guts is needed to say that word BY MOUTH,
And when we failed to gather enough courage to use the word,
Thus, we failed to apologize for our wrong doings,
Or mostly, if we ever hurt their feelings..

Mostly, it is so hard to apologize..
To the person whom you are very close to..

Some might apologize but they don't mean it,
Hence it'll leave a deeper scar on the other person's heart....
However, if you mean what you say,
Especially when you apologize,
It could possibly mend a broken heart..

I still find it hard to apologize,
Especially to the ones whom I am close to..

But if I do..
I do mean it..

I came across this and I thought of sharing it with you:

Never let another person control your life. Live in the present and trust in your own abilities.

Thank you!

/ 1:35 AM

It feels so nice..

After telling Davy about it,

I can't bear to look at her expression when I told her about it,

Its super unbearable that I can't look into her eyes to tell her about it..

Thanks for the support,

Being there for me when I needa talk to someone so desperately,

Letting me know that you are there,

I can't thank you more for that*grin*

Mamak session with the gang and Pn Rasidah was a BLAST!!!

Its been ages since I get to laugh out loud till I teared with the gang and my teacher=)

She's a sport!!

A real sport....

Too bad Natasha couldn't join us for dinner and Varin

Davy ma, thanks for being such a good listener..

Sarlu ma, I'm still waiting for your love letter through e-mail!!

Prom Updates, Part 2

Friday, June 12, 2009 / 7:16 PM

More updates...

My favourite people!^^

My lovely lab partners^^

The Singh brothers whom I still can't tell who is who..XP

Mr Wise and Pam, my dearest lecturer and his wife

Mr Meyer and his "favourite" Chemistry students

(except for Emily, she doesn't take Chemistry)

My girlfriends^^

Mr Shaun, Jin and Lydia's Maths lecturer

Regretted for not changing my time table and learn maths from him instead..

My hunnay!!!xD

Retards!!

The girls?

Mei Shan : Bring it on!

Didi and I : Yeah baby..!!!

In this group pic, Lydia is not around(gawd knows where she was when we took that)

Family potrait!!=)

Emily, Jin's mistress, Sofia, Jin's girlfriend/wife,Didi our maid not being our royal awesomeness,me their daughter, Mei Shan, my sister and Jin's daughter=) and Jin, the pimp

Note : Lydia is our grandma, Jin's mom^^

The dude behind us, he's the mcee for the day..