My eyes swelled after crying for so long last night(Sunday night). My fingers itch so I decided to pour something here. It all happened in just a swift. One moment I am busy with something the next thing I just...I just...oh nevermind! I don't know how to put it but I can't seemed to stop thinking about it. Yes, doing add math can distract me or any calculations work but its only temporary. When I settle down I just can't take that off my mind.I just wanna tell them what I feel but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. You keep telling me sorry but..sorry means nothing to me now. NOTHING! I hate the word more than ever now. Sorry...sorry..sorry..but can you clear the clutter around me now?! I know its just not me to break down in front of so many people but everything seemed to pour out after I'd kept it within me for such a long time. By doing those thing they didn't realise they actually help to contribute to the anger and frustrations that I'd been storing within me. All this while I've been keeping it inside sometimes I imagined I am swallowing them and store them in my stomach. But do you know it hurts badly whenever I feel like exploding!?
I can't bear to face you now.
You never think of how am I feeling you just know how to bombard me with unneccesary questions. I just realise, whenever you ask me those questions its as if you are suspecting me doing things behind your back. I am sick of explaining things to you when you don't try to listen and understand the logic behind it. I hate it when you try to come out with unecessary excuses just to put the blame on my friends or me!
I wish I could go on ignoring you. Cause I don't really know what to do but to ignore everything and move on with whatever I have to do now. I have a goal to achieve now and I don't want anything to stop me from achieving it.
